Note to Self:
God is in the Mystery
When I am attached to my plans and how I think life should unfold, thinking I know best and Ive got it all figured out, I am NOT living in the mystery. I am not allowing God to unfold parts of me that I need to know in order to gift the world with more of who I am, so I can fulfill Gods will, Gods purpose for me.
I am not saying that plans or goals shouldnt be made; I am saying that we must be present to what God brings our way in each moment of our life, trusting that this Great Mystery ALL that is uncertain and unknown is God at work in our lives and in this world. We must STOP in the midst of our doubt, worry, anxiety and fear and remind ourselves that something bigger is at play, something grander than our human minds can comprehend is directing us and the world as needed (even if it isnt what we want).
No matter how mysterious and uncertain life is, our souls know that all is well. Our souls understand that God is in the mystery and delights in the divine unfolding of ourselves and our lives. Our rigidity, our need for things to be as they are is understandable we humans want to control every aspect of our lives. But God gently or thunderously enters, urging us to surrender to the will of the Heavens, to extract the wisdom of whatever life brings, to walk in faith even when we are on a tightrope and to hold the pain and joy of life simultaneously. This is living in the Mystery!
The saying: If you want to make God laugh tell him (or her) your plans speaks to the mystery. We must show up each day and live life, paying attention to the events that come our way as if they are an answered prayer. Yes, even the neighbor that grinds on our nerves may be an angel here to polish our soul and deliver a profound message. Perhaps just by being who you are, sharing a story or listening to someone, you are an angel disguised as a soccer mom, a history teacher, a gardener, a grandparent, an executive, or whatever roles you play.
Listen with the ears of your soul and see with the eyes of your soul, asking God to reveal the gifts in the mysteries. PRAY! Talk to God. Shout at God. Just speak your truth: God, I know that you are in the mystery but I hate this shit. I wanna know that Im going to be okay. I wanna know that my family will have a home, food, clothing and wont be living on the streets. I want guarantees! I know this isnt how it works, but this is what I want. Please, hold me in the midst of my fear. Please, let me feel your peace, your love, your hope, your joy, your grace as I walk through the challenges of this day. Let me know with every fiber of my being that you walk with me. Remind me to breathe in your ocean of love when I feel contracted, tense and freaked out. Every breath, I breathe you in, I invite LIFE (you) in and I am grateful. THANK YOU. Bless me. Bless all of humanity. Bless all of creation.
